My real name and partially accurate info all misspelled just correct enough though to where it’s undoubtedly me are not just a complication I’ve cut short many of these posts for readability but such as all things in life one thing leads to another and its all cause and effect.
The sum of these small things: a disagreement with a few reps, a big mouth not knowing when to walk away on the blogs, having to have the last word, demeaning people until they of course scream on the internet and throw or make up slime, is absurdly childish and shortsighted.
You don’t have to look far for evidence of damage, only a couple years before our reseller network when we took over a goddamn industry starting as just a dealer ourselves in a shithole office, would in any other vertical be something books and movies would be about. If not for the bad press, thats warning 1. What happened? 1 customer. 1 customer taken for a very bad deal by one of those resellers, gets so mad he makes a new living for himself bloging us all out of business. and he did, every single office but mine shut down, out of business. And ours lost over 30 maybe 40% of revenue from if I recall about 1.35-1.7 million gross annual at that time. Fucking millions, our people!
You do not engage on public forums how dumb are you? How vain rather. I wonder if we would’ve been so cash strapped living paycheck to paycheck when it all fell over in Irvine might have been gotten through if we had our reseller network intact. Obviously it would’ve helped, I never didn’t know how bad it could be but I lived it and the dollars came out of my pocket. I didnt take from the experiece and challenges in the wake of it that I should go fight ex-employees with a screw loose and a bone to pick on permanent record Internet forums in public view. That just wasn’t the lesson I learned. But I am paying the price for the rest of my life, for the lesson he didn’t learn. For the record you don’t dig into your employees and fight them in any forum, being mean is never necessary and if it ever feels like the right thing to do well I figure that should never factor in for most Americans. When it does its isolated I’ll even accept revenge as that and give you a pass but not if its a godamn pathology you are known for.
Mean-ness, rage, a need to belittle others and feeling nothing or worse, feeling good while doing it is what bullies do. It’s a sickness stemming from as I’ve seen it either overcompensating for feelings of inadequacy and low self worth or from inflated egos and god-like self importance narcissm. They require a doctor, if you aren’t too angry and amped up for a waiting room twice a month. Or you can let it out on your employees so that they are so afraid and angry add to the fact you fired them and they don’t have any other outlet to reach you, you have a recipe for some harsh blogs coming. It may be all customers, and all bullshit, but no matter how many mountains you move to get from one stage to the next, 1 blogger can reset your score. And if you don’t care about that, care about the partner standing next to you because he’s going down with you. Like I did with Charles.
I’ll continue this Credibility Rant with regard to Dangerously Sloppiness Rep Management on a another post
I hate pride, I hate talking about myself. I grew up a lot of time around hoods, too much. I hated them. If I had money success would be something I inherited, I never cared about skin color and find black pride ias offensive and ignorant as white power how can you be proud of something you didnt choose. I am proud to be from nothing because it means I can take responsibility for what goes wrong and know that its in my control to change it that makes things easier, simpler, and were I to not feel obnoxious and self conscious about it it also means at my option I can get credit for anything right.
Not doing so has cost me dearly. For reasons hard to summarize it may kill me sooner than later and take everything because I have a somewhat anonymous reputation. I chose that I can blame charles from not exactly making online a welcoming place no matter what I acheive but ultimately I like my privacy and odd idealist modesty too much and when I needed validation and credibility like I do to survive right now, its not there. For all those reasons and more and because pride annoys me, I hope to be forgivin this not very common braggadocios rant but if I don’t at least try and sell my self my worth on the basis of facts and what I have accomplished I’m sort of an embarassment to salesman the world round so here it goes. Here is my background.
Whose success and up from nothing is the very epitome of exception to the norm. Charles and I are similar in this way because we are the underdog bet against in the beginning and emulated and imitated ad nauseum by the end. It’s never luck all I need is a momentary cessation of bad luck, and if it doesn’t come I still get through.
And in the ascent to the big leagues was as always a fight nobody else can ever possibly understand especially if they got there by inheritance or by bank loan, criminality, or winning the lottery. I’m humble and secretive and hate talking about myself above all else, but not about this.
Here I am honor bound to speak up because I have worn every hat even at the same time as in 3 phones 2 headsets 2 keyboards, different voices and bouncing from closer to admin, to janitor, to customer service to accountant to sales manager to goddamn programmer. Whispering in one ear of my salesmen, the magic words to come out the other end for the win. I’ve had to hack google to build a scraper of exclusive ppc data of which I had all of, for the starter data before building my own harvester ip rotators, senders, but that doesnt make the win sales savvy does. So I combine the two I’ve a simple lead formula that has proved a 10x multiplier in every vertical I’ve yet tried and all these tools aren’t some one hit wonder that I build a startup around, they are the anonymous thankless components one of many in a series, that go into simply keeping the machine rolling. It’s not about being well versed in these things I’m not, I just do what it takes and love to create and solve problems and make the whole machine better.
I started managing my first call center with 3 months experience selling, or any job in life. I was a teenager, and I was homeless breaking into a vacant apartment to sleep. I bought a car with my first 8 hours paycheck. If I didn’t beat at least 97 of my 100 fellow salesman I wouldnt have the gas to come back the next morning, I was number 3 on my 3rd day and in the few months I stayed I remained consistent. A couple months after that I found a shop a humble one that would give me the shot I needed since lets face it I was inexperienced, and forcing out a mustache to hide my age. My point with all this is that was the cost of blowing my rep with family and getting arrested, regardless if I quit. Everything I have attained lost and reattained is always the same. Always a nothing so vacuous of advantage its a place of death and from their hopeless helpless place I choose to make the opportunity for myself and let others enjoy fates favors.
From this place, I reach the top every time and can still find a way to inspire excellence in those around me and make them up their game despite being lower than any of them would ever know maybe not long before. I am proud of this. It is who I am it is all I know to be. I don’t own a business I am a business. There’s black people white people fireman and children and heroes and movie stars and there’s me. I’m not any of them I am a business.
I don’t just identify myself that way I only identify myself that way it’s not what I do it’s what I just am. I learned binary and 80x85 assembler compiling by hand and making up math problems with a book i found in the garbage. I still don’t know what the thing even looks like, never seen one. A beauty though available now in full 1MHz clock speeds!
Before this I taught myself multiplication division and basic algebra starting in 1st grade. The multiplication one was 4th grade I was so happy when I was allowed to work from it instead of doing my own grade level I couldn’t believe my luck digging through the garbage when school books were thrown out, you’d think I was a poor kid in Bangladesh. In preschool I pushed over my bookcase and screamed pissed off that I couldnt read myself to myself the pages looked like dancing symbols, chinese. Before you picture some nerd with a complex or creepy high pressure asian parents, I also had long hair an obsession with classic rock, the doors, Jimi, Alice Cooper… Was god awful at sports and preferred using the time writing essays on the futility of PE class in modern education but
was pull-up and pushup champion in my class, and the classes immediately above and below me. I was a dark but decent poet, got arrested more times than I can count because that’s how my mother would ground me, by calling the police, I skipped 8th grade and did 2 years of high school with diploma, enrolled in college at 14 to take math and japanese business language but didn’t get to go. And I haven’t seen home since I was 15, I don’t actually have one but I did get to buy one for 500k in my 20’s without help, and park some nice cars there.
Every business Charles and I had up to the end was a million dollar earning company in its first year. Started every 1.5 years with a symbolic dollar capital contribution and physical assets of what came before. No bank loans. no help, and the first sales made before the ATM and LLC papers arrive in the fucking mail. check or wire at that,because merchant accounts are for pussy’s who like refunds chargebacks and coddling. and they are weak at least in relative terms
The one post embezzlement sit down I did have with my partner he couldn’t hide excitement about a 100k funding deal from some hedge fund guy in New York he had access to he was so concerned with the long term he out of character was sitting on it until he was confident he had someone who could pull it off. He is sitting on a video analytics job, the basic specs of which are in production on the same server I’m typing this on because the only server out of a fleet that’s left not turned off for lack of payment is my phone server where I have my production use VBX 100 phone lines for other projects that get routed through here and drafts of my now ruined RTC, SIP, and conferencing software each of which was supposed to be a company anyway. the stats page on a one of my own custom plugins is doubling as a test for detailed user interaction with video elements metrics test version 1 I see it daily. Perfect right I mean I’ve already done it 6 months prior to him telling me I think its safe to call it handled.
Maybe he thought I’d say anything to get back a piece of whats mine, or to not sleep in the car that night as I did the night before on the coldest night of the year, well whatever he thought the fact is Ray Antony (not me of course) has a string of code that put together from place to place certify that he is more than a little familiar with tracking code, I thought my experience with software to track reps go around us, ad metrics for out networks, things going back a decade would give me some points but I guess already done is just not good enough. Funny the same person to sabotage my credibility I guess forgot he did so and is concerned about my credibility. Maybe I explain the Ray Antony ID and take him through some things lol!
why were you building analytics software?
Many reasons I needed to prepare for having to rely on myself and not use Google for security, and at the same time the success of a couple projects was such that my old code stitched together over the decade (yes you heard right I’ve actually wrote tracking software before holy shit!), well it was breaking under the traffic and just not designed for the current demands.
As luck would have it legally I own it and logically I should be able to access it and administer it at my discretion with relative ease given that my business owns it.
ownership confusion
So what’s the problem?
The problem is that my business partner has taken what was ours and made it his. Just try to picture Donald Trump, and his We’re going to grab, and grab, and grab” speech.
Yeah it was kind like that I suppose. Not much ado was made over the innumerable consequences I might face large or small. And well I suppose I would rank this as small, in the big picture. But Very annoying.
I could do without appearing to have the grammar and spelling skills of a 3rd grader, now that I’m 35ish. That’s all I’m saying.
Public perception, misconceptions, and missed marketing and social opportunities are obvious issues with using this. As the core function of most of my businesses over the decade has revolved around Internet Marketing, its not lost on me the value of the opportunity cost.
Hard to not think about when things come up on a social coding site like a minor contribution to a DOD/government project which crossed paths with my own federated analytics undertaking at the time so whover the f** ray *Antony is, well he’s closer to getting recruited than the real me.
This site is by Ray Antony / Ray Anthony, and any other known aliases that are applicable and none that are not.
As far as I’m concerned if someone came looking for me or chancing upon this id and repo and left thinking that was just some weird guys nonsense rambling, that’s a best case scenario. Because the things I’ve been forced to stash in plain view under alternate names is well shocking.
I’ll admit I have a strange habit of posting odd things wrought with misspellings, grammatical errors, often while not looking at the screen or the keyboard. Sometimes that’s because I don’t care, yes. And obviously in most cases like that not considering an audience. I’m not ‘not successful’ you know, I did not have a moment of delusion and actually think that such things are after careful study, the best way to attract, and engage people with, and commence to create them. In fact I probably was trying to achieve what I did in the hopefully rare case of someone coming across it on this blog or literally a thousand other places in a span of a year or 2.
Yes its an unfortunate habit for a marketing guy but yes detracting people is a bigger consideration sometimes, so is time. So minimal hurried random stream of consciousness and oddly humoured content littered with personal jokes and references are pretty much what circumstances like this, call for. What circumstance? Well a blog in front of a code repository, one that might need to publicly stash keys or be a go between buffering identities transacting assets that are of high value and or at high risk, well what else would you do? Sometimes not filling out a silly blog is enough to make the decision without you to terminate your account so you blabber some nonsense.